The anahata chakra is my favourite chakra. It is the middle chakra, connecting earthly parts of ourselves with heavenly parts. It represents love, compassion, forgiveness. It is ruled by air and corresponds to the lungs, heart, circulatory system and the arms. Last night I taught a heart chakra class in a beautiful place to a small group of people I love. I felt pretty confident teaching which was unusual since one of my fellow yoga teacher training peers was there. I am always insanely nervous teaching other teachers. I did get my left and rights mixed up a few times which caused some long pauses but other than that I think it went well. I loved the space and would like to start teaching there every Sunday. I need at least five regular students to make it affordable. I have around eight students that come to my Sunday classes but the attendance is really all over the map. It makes it hard to predict and plan. I am learning that this is the case for many teachers in Victoria. So far almost all of my students are people I know. There is a small handful that are “friends of friends”… but really I am pretty familiar with everyone I teach. In some ways is is nice but I notice that I am developing some “bad teaching habits” because I know the people I teach. I would like to have a class of strangers so that I don’t get lazy with the class orientation. I think I need to write reminders on my hand or something like that. “Tell them where the bathroom is”, “Tell them your name”, “Ask them if they have any health issues”… you know those important little details?
We started studying the Anahata Chakra last night (heart chakra) which was a huge relief. Anahata focuses on love, compassion, self care. Hear that?? SELF CARE. Yup. That is why I was so eager to get to this chakra. I really feel that I need a gentle soft approach to yoga these days. I still haven’t recovered from the exhaustion having a baby caused me these past couple years. I feel delicate and like I don’t have any reserves or resources to draw on when things get a little intense. Rest, relaxation, proper diet and deep sleep are kind of my top priorities at the moment. Losing the baby weight can come after.
We did a nice practice last night using dowels in our hands to keep awareness about our shoulders and back. There is a tendency in yoga to scrunch the shoulders up tight when moving into postures. The dowels helped remind us to keep them wide and open. I have used this technique in belly dance classes before. I thought it was interesting that the teacher focused on our shoulders and back during our “heart class”. The back of our heart should remain open too, not just the front of our bodies. Whenever I think of the heart chakra I automatically think of the front of the chest. It was helpful to be reminded that there is more to our bodies than our front side.
Last night I was (once again) stuck with a sick baby who CLUNG TO me and wouldn’t sleep unless we were touching. Due to my physical restrictions I decided to do a guided meditation instead of physical asanas. We have been working with chakras at my yoga teacher training so I found a chakra meditation video that I thought looked good. I settled into bed and turned the video on. It was terrible. Okay maybe not terrible, but it was one of those new age chakra angel synthesizer types of things that I cringe at. Something about that kind of music makes me immediately assume the information being presented is utter crap. Which is pretty biased actually. Really it was okay. The words were okay. The descriptions were simplistic but good enough. I am just afraid of new age stuff. I would have looked for another video but the baby had already woken three times as I tried to get settled. I stuck with it.
I am trying to be more open minded. I worked in a metaphysical store for years and dealt with many crazy new agers so I tend to be a little jaded. The thing is I think I Iet my bias get in the way of good information sometimes. One book that really changed me was Creative Visualization by Shakti Gwain. I don’t even think I would consider that book if I picked it up today. Yet it was good. It was full of amazing information that I still use to this day.
I think I need to get over myself. Somehow I have let these “life experiences” harden into some pretty inflexible ideologies. I want to remain soft and open to new things.